Almost Didn’t Write Today

I was going to write an article about blockchain technology, I really was. The subject interests me, and Mondays are when I write about stuff I like that isn’t a theme. Then, I decided not to. Oh I am going to write that article, just not today.

Truth be told, I almost didn’t write this post at all. I don’t feel motivated, even right this second. I’m looking at the words I’ve written, and I’m thinking, “why am I bothering?” I know people are reading the things I post even if they don’t respond in the comments – a good friend of mine contacted me via messenger about one of my recent posts so, that’s not the issue.

There are times when I just don’t feel like doing anything, and there’s not a concrete reason for it. I just can’t seem to want to is all. I’m guessing it ties in with my depression though some have posited it could be a mental condition related to committing myself to doing something. I know there are things I need to do, but I find it hard to actually begin doing them. Once I get going though, I’m good to go.

So, why am I writing this post? It seems this is one of those times where I made myself do something and now, I’m okay with doing it.

I’ve also read, from many different sources, a writer should write something every day, doesn’t matter what it is, even a grocery list. This is my grocery list.

I seriously doubt I am alone in this issue I have about wanting to do something yet not wanting to at the same time, of having to make myself do something and once begun, getting into it and being happy I did it. If I am, write me off as being a weirdo and keep reading to see what I write next.

If you have issues like mine, or maybe something akin to it, feel free to comment. I read all the comments, and I reply to them – as long as they’re not sales pitches or something crude. I’ve had that happen to me which is why I approve all comments before they publish, or try to.

Still, I’m sorry to say my ennui remains even after this post so, I’m going to end this and go back to watching old episodes of Heroes. I never saw it when it was on television.

See you on the flipside and don’t forget your towel and sonic screwdriver!